I always thought working from home would be an ideal situation. Working in my PJ’s with the TV on… or rocking out to whatever music as loud as I want J Turns out… working from home… with a new toddler…not so great or as “easy” as I thought it would be. Let me first clarify, Emma is not a high maintenance child, in fact, she’s been a total god-send since birth, and she really only “cries” when she has really bad diaper rash (TMI) or when she happens to fall and hurt herself (like she did 4 times today). The problem is that now that Emma is old enough to “talk” she wants to talk to everyone and everything. She wants to skype if you’re skyping, she wants to talk on the phone if you’re talking to someone, she even wants to type and email when you are trying to draft an email to your boss, or a potential client. The joys of trying to battle her off of the computer are not as easy as you’d think, I’m clearly larger and stronger (maybe not) than she is but, Her shear determination to GET ON THE COMPUTER is scary… and the fact that she can sit on my lap and type and use the mouse as if she knows exactly what she’s doing? Even scarier.
So, with all of that being said, my time to “work from home” is limited to the time that Emma is napping… which equates to a max of 2 hours per day… no more, and usually, much less. Those two hours in which I also have to do my chores, shower and make myself presentable for the day. It’s a good thing I take fast showers and am a wicked fast dishwasher.
This is something I have learned recently about working, or rather, finally come to terms with recently. Whether you work for a corporation and have multiple bosses, or you work from home, for one boss….every single one of them assumes you can read their mind. Well guess what? I can’t! I barely know what my mind wants half the time… so HOW oh HOW would I know what you want? I like to think that its worst for males than females, but I don’t actually have any factual data to base that assumption on. All I know is that I’ve supported all males, 7 in total in my working life… and nearly every single one has assumed I knew exactly what they wanted without ever telling me. Given enough time and effort, I can get there… but let’s just start out assuming I can’t read your mind and throw me bone or two. Much appreciated.
I’m thankful for the opportunity to work from home… and I think a part of me just has this lingering fear that I’m going to fail at this job since its not what I’ve known. I haven’t figured out the industry… and quite honestly, I’m a girl, so what is the likelihood that I know the colors and mascots of every college in the nation? (Please note, I’m not a girl that doesn’t like sports… I LOVE sports… its just not standard protocol for ANY FEMALE to know those things for EVERY COLLEGE, if there is a girl out there that does, props, maybe we should hire you)I may not have known a thing about finance working at my last job… but I was good at what I did and did it for so long it was like second nature. It’s daunting to start something new…feeling like a failure is not a good feeling. And I don’t take criticism well, I mean, I know, it will only make me better in the end, but it hurts my feelings when I hear it. Not that my new boss (also a dear friend of mine) would probably ever yell at me or criticize me. But I don’t want to disappoint him. So the pressure is on.
I think I’m doing okay tho… I think. At least I haven’t been told otherwise.
Working from home is probably still the most ideal situation for me right now… but I do miss the office environment… I miss cubicles, haha, never thought I’d say that. But as with all things in life, everything happens for a reason, and there is a time for everything… so right now, my time is suppose to be spent working from home… so here I am. Workin iT! :)
